As you know, my one word focus for 2013 is courage. I’ve been thinking about it a lot. I’ve been reading about it in scripture. I’ve been meditating on it. I’ve been listening to others. I’ve been writing about it and I’ve asked my writing colleagues in The Network to write about it when it’s their turn to post here at From Carol’s Quill. It’s in my heart and my mind.
Recently, God has led me to see a process in courage and beyond:
- God places in our hearts a desire: to do, to experience, to love
- He helps us dream about giving life to that desire and often gives us gifts or places people or circumstances in our path to accomplish those dreams.
- Insecurity steps in: I’m not enough, I can’t, I’m too little, it’s too hard
- That results in a sense of vulnerability: I may fail, be rejected, ignored, hurt
- This is the pivotal point in our journey. Sometimes we turn away. Give up. Abandon our dream. Ignore God’s leading. Be disobedient.
- And sometimes we decide to be obedient anyway. Even though we are insecure. Even though we are vulnerable. Even though.
- At that point God shows us that the attempt is worthy. Regardless of the outcome, the itself path provides experience. The process brings knowledge, wisdom, growth, empathy, strength. Courage.
God created me to desire and dream. He gifted me with talent or the ability to learn. When I proceed with courage in the process, I also leave the results to Him.
Insecurity and vulnerability become nearly irrelevant. Despite insecurity, I try and I do my best. I learn from my mistakes and get better each time I try. If I fail, I learn why and try again.
I may feel vulnerable, but even if I am rejected by people or ignored or hurt. I am never rejected by the God of the universe who stands at my side, pushing me forward, lifting me up, cheering me on.
In the end as well as through the process, God loves me. He is pleased at the trying. Results are important—even sometimes to Him—but the process is what causes learning and growth and it is the process that shines the light of obedience that makes God smile.
PRAYER: Heavenly Father, thank you for giving us minds that dream big dreams. Please show us how to make those dreams a reality. Show us how to be obedient to you in the process. Amen.
WHAT ABOUT YOU? What desire has God placed on your heart that you are just now beginning to dream about?